Loneliness is a palpable thing.  It can eat away at every part of you.  It gets you to be silent and hear sounds you never heard before and whose origin you can’t explain.  It’s scary to be alone and think of how long it would take for anyone to even find you if something bad happened to you.  Scaring yourself like this is a good thing if it gets you to go out and meet new people.  Always try new things.  Unfinished business is a good motivator to get through bad times.